I need to say, I have had better days than yesterday. I did not get to write in my blog, I had just finished typing what I was going to say, when the computer, just shut down. But it seems my fear is hanging on these past few days. And I'm trying to cope, but it's not an easy task. In my case, winter makes my life a living hell. I think the weather affects my mood. I don't want to sound like a whiner, I just feel the need to express the, ups' and downs of my illness. I hope, it helps someone to better understand its' toll on a person. I feel like depression is stepping on me with a heavy foot. Why Must You Keep Me Down? Why must you steal my glory ? Why must you feed my shame? Why must you seemingly adore me? Why must you state your blame ? Why must you not face me, when, so oft,I've heard you call! Why must you chuckle blatantly, as my tears begin to fall? Why must you revel in your righteousness, whilst I, attempt to crawl, from neath your dark,dark,shadow? For you're the reason, WHY MUST YOU KEEP ME DOWN!!?? JUS HATE YOU BECAUSE OF TAT STUPID REASON.. JUST GET AWAY FROM ME!! FCUK OFF FROM MY LIFE UNWANTEDS.. U MAKE ME FEEL FULL OF HATERDNESS!!! BEGGING U GO AWAY!!!:(.. jus no mood gtg ~toodles~